Thursday, September 1, 2011


I lost a friend today. They didn't die, but I feel like a small part of me did. I'm really going to miss this person as I have really grown to love them over the years. But what is love? Is there more than one kind of love? How can you tell the difference? I believe there are many different types of love and you can show these different types in many different ways. I am sad that I lost my friend today, all because I cannot show them the love they crave and deserve. The reason I am sad is because deep down I knew this day would come, so it didn't exactly come as a shock but it is still sad nonetheless and it still doesn't make the fact that this person is gone hurt any less. I think on some level I've always known that I was going to lose this person, I just wasn't sure when. From the start the feelings were not mutual, but overtime as our friendship grew, my feelings for this person changed as well. I started to see this person as someone I could not imagine not having in my life because of the bond that we created, but It was never enough to change the type of love I showed this person. Unfortunately for this person my feelings never evolved past friendship, unfortunately for me this means that I have to find a new friend who will understand me inside and out regardless of whether or not I say anything or not. If you have ever had the opportunity to connect with someone on a level where they truly do know you inside and out based solely on intuition and details that they pick up, then you have known a friendship that is deeper than most. I am thankful for having gotten the chance to experience this kind of friendship, but sad that it had to come to an end.
So I guess this is goodbye. Goodbye my friend.